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2019 (7)

July (2)

Set in Stone Journal July 15 2019: Set in stone...journal July 15!2019   I very much dislike the idea of my days being numbered; You...
Red Balloon July 3,2019: Once in a story I heard Pooh Bear ask for a red balloon, when asked if he needed it he answered “n...

May (1)

Life is bigger than a moment in time....5/15/19: We all have them, a moment in time, a snapshot or memory that was so quick yet so huge it altered ou...

April (1)

The Stones along the Way...journal April 22 2019: The stones along the way...journal April 22 2019 Recently I was invited to celebrate with a friend ...

February (2)

Life is percentages.....journal February 22 2019: Recently I shared more about the genetic cancer disorder I carry and passed onto all 3 of my childre...
Our triplets are identical....2/2/19: My triplets are identical....blog 2/2/19 In 2004 we decided to take our 3 kids to Hawaii for the fi...

January (1)

Let it go...journal 1/19/19: Let it go....journal January 19 2019   We live in a society where many days we feel as if we are ...

2018 (12)

December (1)

Fragments made whole...: This has been a very different holiday season for many people close to me and it has made me think a...

November (1)

Grab a shovel....Journal November 11, 2018: It is another day in the neighborhood.  So much junk whirling around that can bring moods of all sh...

October (1)

Twirl and stir up happy.....journal Oct. 27 2018: Last night was tough, really tough.  When someone is stopped short in the battle with cancer it hur...

September (1)

14 year circle.... journal September 28, 2018: There come life events you want to freeze frame not because they define you but because you realize ...

August (2)

Stop and ponder....journal August 14 2018: A precious woman I pray for from the mission field handed me a stack of beautifully painted cards to...
Bring out the heavy artillery...journal 8/6/2018: Bring out the heavy artillery   I get asked often how the MLH1 gene or Lynch syndrome affects mys...

July (1)

Sometimes you don't get what you plan for...: Sometimes you don't get what you planned for and sometimes it just turns out better than you planned...

May (1)

Six months to celebrate.....journal May 10 2018: Six months comes and goes and we all say "wow, time flies".  There may have been a birthday, a wedd...

March (1)

I Clean windows....journal March 30, 2018: I clean windows   Years ago when diagnosed with cancer I lay in the hospital following surgery an...

February (2)

The tree,the scans, the memories.. journal 2/12/18: Growing up in a little town there was a tiny church with people I loved dearly.  The teaching in th...

January (1)

The Quilt....journal January 10 2018: My 50th birthday came with the promise a special quilt was being made to remember that monumental da...

2017 (4)

December (1)

THIS IS ENOUGH....journal December 16, 2017: Having dealt with years of health issues and the juggling of a rerouted digestive system you learn m...

November (1)

PS: Cancer still sucks.....journal entry 11/8/2017: Lynch syndrome, often called hereditary nonpolyposis colorectal cancer (HNPCC), is an INHERITED diso...

September (2)

My Survival is a teen...journal 9/28/2017: Thirteen, my "Survival" day (September 28, 2004) is celebrating 13 years and oh the parallels it h...
Hand prints...Journal Sept. 13 2017: I can't believe nearly a year has gone by since this screen and I have had a word session.  The wor...

2016 (6)

September (2)

Wind of emotion (12 years)....journal September 28: A few days ago I shared a thought with a friend that is in his battle with cancer.  Talking to him ...
I may be loopy....journal September 9 2016: It has been busy around my life with the arrival of a second beautiful grandson, celebrating our 30t...

May (1)

Live it from the inside out....journal May14 2016: I am an outsider looking in.  As I listened to scheduling rattle off the date and times of my upcom...

April (1)

Heartbeats...Journal entry April 25 2016: As this morning unfolded and I began a text of encouragement to a friend and his wife in the front l...

March (1)

Tears and all...journal March 5 2016: I recently read, “When you can tell your story and not cry, you are healed."  At first I thought ...

January (1)

I do it anyway Journal January 23 2016: I do it anyway….journal  January 23 2016   Another year brings another promise of new things t...

2015 (4)

December (1)

The blank page and I....journal December 7 2015: It has been awhile since I have visited a blank page awaiting the vomit of my thoughts.  I have pur...

May (1)

36 years of life, one magical moment....5/17/15: A few months ago I shared about wishing upon a star, a future with no hope and then a dream of hopes...

March (1)

Flexing emotional muscle...journal entry 3/9/15: It’s been over 10 years now since my first diagnosis with late stage colon cancer.  Over the year...

January (1)

When you wish upon a star....journal entry January: When you wish upon a star Makes no difference who you are Anything your heart desires Will come to y...

2014 (14)

December (1)

Dying to live...journal entry 12-1-14: “I am dying to live”, were the words I just heard from the mouths of 75 plus little kiddos.  Su...

October (2)

My friend, clean scans and "forced perspective" : Today I read a blog from a precious friend of mine and it reminded me so much of my love affair with...
When anxiety and emotion collide...10/11/14:   I am currently directing a kid's choir and use a red flag blue flag system to check and balance ...

September (2)

Year One meet year Ten....journal entry 9/28/14: It is here, September 28 2014 a day that I dreamed of and yet never hoped for.  Baby steps are all ...
Dance between heaven and earth..journal 9-14-14:   I stand back and watch as this world meets what is beyond.  For me this means heaven, for I bel...

August (2)

Thought of the day....journal entry August 29 2014: When your mind is weary and your body cries out in pain you have the choice to curl up in a ball and...
Thoughts....: When adversity, disease or just the general bad day seek to rob you of your dreams, look within your...

July (1)

As this story takes shape...journal entry 7/11/14: Is new the better you, or me as this story takes shape in my mind?  As with all patients whom have...

May (2)

Out of control mind vomit...journal entry 5/22/14: Sometimes it smacks me right upside the head, reality at its best.  I sit here filling out more pap...
Why? Why? Why? Journal entry May 13 2014: Today a friend shared publically the news that her daughter was recently diagnosed with a syndrome t...

March (1)

Markers & Milestones...journal entry March 27 2014: Approaching a birthday always spurs thoughts in the mind of what was accomplished in the year past a...

February (1)

The 3 of you will have to learn to get along..2/14: I plunged the shovel into the earth and gasped as the pain shot through my elbows like hot lightning...

January (2)

I want more of what dreams are made of...1/31/2014: She no sooner crossed the threshold before blurting out, “your scans are clean”.  Silly, wonder...
Love good news!: Went to the doctor for scans and blood work and all was clean.  Not only was it clean but she felt ...

2013 (15)

December (1)

Dreams come true...journal entry 12/23/2013: My feet hit the ground on December 14 2013 my body aching, fever raging and every fiber in my body s...

November (2)

The gowns....journal entry Nov. 24, 2013: The gowns… I chose it for him that first gown, my heart fluttered as it was dropped over my head ...
Silence after a mind storm...journal entry 11-5-13: In my life I have seen many things good and bad, not much different than most folks that prance thro...

September (1)

September 28 2013 meet "Nine": I saw it coming at me, year 9, with all the glory it could muster it counted down the days until it ...

August (2)

Surviving within "the perfect storm": I watch it like one would watch a blizzard safe within a fortress, trusting it will hold against the...
Hope without boundaries...Journal entry 8/9/13: I hear the phone ring and the fax turn on and I realize that I have suppressed the worry very well u...

June (1)

Wallowing or living.....June 27 2012: Do you ever try to remember what life was like before ongoing treatment and invasive monitoring beca...

May (2)

I loathe the limitaions of me..May 30 2013: Do I grow weary and let it over take me or do I press on, pushing my body and mind like an athlete w...
Middle, that funny little word...May 18 2013: When we enter this world it is in a tiny body in which we have little to no control.  We come by no...

April (1)

A new prison cell for my birthday....April 2 2013: I sit here, the day before my 48th birthday and I am grateful beyond words.  Ok, maybe not beyond w...

March (2)

A day and a year for Suzi....journal March 18 2013: Memories are crazy things; I have written before on how important it is to us to be remembered, yet ...
Remember me....journal entry March 5, 2013: We enter the world and one of the first things they do is dab our tiny feet with ink and place our f...

February (1)

The overwhelming darkness...journal entry February 4 2013: That dark place, we all have it deep inside us. It is the place that we go when we suffer from loss...

January (2)

Life and a blank sheet of paper....journal entry January 23 2013: Staring at this blank piece of paper feels a bit like my life was at one point, blank. Having been...
Scars are just life's signiture,,,,journal entry January 13 2013: The definition of scarring according to the handy online dictionary is: 1. a mark left on the skin a...

2012 (26)

December (2)

WE RUN FOR ...? journal entry December 26 2012: Well, Christmas is over and the day is drawing near for my “Tinkerbell “run through the streets ...
Blessed be this day and those to come!: Today I woke up with my mind trying to take me to the pit of dispair over cancer, illness and other ...

November (3)

Dark clouds aside and a promise to come...journal entry November 25 2012: She was 12 ½ years old when she sat there on the sofa with her sister and brother. They all looked...
A day at the ball (hospital)...journal entry November 13 2012: She sat across from me, nails polished, beautiful clothing, make up perfect in a posture that scream...
Learning to love that which you despise...journal entry November 3 2012: As recent blogs would reveal I have had some head to head teeth gnashing moments with the scars of c...

October (2)

The hallways of our minds....journal entry October 25 2012: The hallways of our minds lend us endless possibilites to ponder that which makes us happy and that ...
On days that are less than perfect....journal entry October 8 2012: I am looking at the calendar in shock that October is already zooming past. Where does the time go?...

September (4)

Time to play, it's 8 year survivor day!...journal entry September 28, 2012: Eight, eight years have passed since my September 28, 2004 diagnoses day, as I write this I can bare...
Memories are a gift...journal entry September 22, 2012: Today, September 22 I celebrate my first born daughter’s 25th birthday with beautiful memories an...
Thoughts swirling in my mind...journal entry September 17 2012: I remember him as a baby, then a little boy but not as a teen for some reason my mind loses him ther...
No need to remind me to celebrate :)....journal entry September 6 2012: The month of celebration has begun! We spent September 1st witnessing the marriage of a precious yo...

August (3)

Celebrating; the beginning or the end?....Journal entry August 30 2012: Reading back through my journal I discovered a page marked simply September 2, 2007. It should read...
Depression Be Gone!: I am waking up on the other side of a horrible bout of depression. Five long months of anger, ques...
Sorting it out....journal entry...August 5 2012: Sorting it all out is what we as survivors do continually. Categorizing our pain levels, measuring ...

July (2)

Woo Hoo, still NED!: Went to the gastro a week ago and learned that the biopsies came back NED. Yay hurray, jumping for ...
The Dance...journal entry July 5 2012: Earlier today I was speaking with someone and mentioned in passing that I had gone for scopes last w...

June (2)

Down pour cry where no clouds have been allowed...journal entry June 21, 2012: I continue on my quest to find balance in this game of survival and as I do I seem to come across mo...
Survivor Day!!!!: Happy National Survivor day everybody!!!! ...

May (2)

I warn you, "Don't tell me NO"....journal entry May 28 2012: I have found myself to be in a less than acceptable mood lately and I just do not like it! In my qu...
Another opportunity to share...: I was asked to speak again...if you would like to hear go to Visalianaz.org hit missed sermons then ...

April (4)

4 days, Disneyland, scans, Dr. and a homeless man?...journal entry April 30 2012: Following two wonderful days at Disneyland, my youngest daughter her boyfriend and I headed on to my...
Fearful but ready, so go ahead bring it!.....journal entry April 16 2012: I am driven suddenly from a sound sleep, my eyes fly open and I hear my heart beating in my chest. ...
Keeper of the Miracle: November 30, 2004 my sister in law Suzie joined me on a journey, just 2 months and 2 days after my d...
"Smacked": Sometimes life throws such a punch that even the eternal optimist inside you is stunned into silence...

March (1)

"NOT INTENDED FOR WOMEN"...journal entry March 11 2012: Recently I started going through pelvic floor physical therapy in hopes of gaining some control over...

February (1)

2,706 days of survival, so why the tears?....February 25, 2012: Lately I have been doing the "ups and downs" of survivor guilt. Why why why do we have to deal with...

2011 (16)

October (1)

Taking control of memories....journal entry October 25 2011: I am sitting here staring at this blank page and realizing that the thoughts swirling around in my h...

September (3)

Survivor Day!!!!: ‎7 years ago today cancer entered my life. I have watched family and friends battle it along side ...
Survivor Day!!!!: ‎7 years ago today cancer entered my life. I have watched family and friends battle it along side ...
25 years, of marriage that is :): Twenty five years ago today we said "I do". We promised each other "in sickness and in health", "in...

August (1)

Cancer can't reach heaven: Cancer can't reach heaven. Yes, these are words I am clinging to right now as I process the loss of...

July (3)

hurray!: Finally got through to the doctor this evening...by passed and told on his receptionist. Doc didn't...
Having to wait....journal entry July 19 2011: On July 11 I gathered myself together and drove to a friend's house at the lovely hour of 4:30 am. ...
Hi Ho Hi Ho it's off to scopes I gooooo...: Hi ho Hi ho it's off to scopes I go...lol. Yes this Monday I will succumb to the best nap on earth ...

June (1)

Why? Why? Why I ask?....journal entry June 15 2011: Recently our friends lost a teenage son; this makes the 5th teenage son lost to families we love. I...

May (1)

What do you do with news? Journal entry May 16 2011: Sometimes I am just not sure what to do with news about me. Be it good news, bad news or just news I...

April (3)

17 months to go....journal entery April 15 2011: April 13 I enter the hospital for my scans. I am late for my appointment and a bit agitated for I h...
Online tesimony: For those of you who asked...I have done my testimony and it can be listened to by going to Visalia ...
I'm 46 and still on the "right side of the grass"....journal entry April 4 2011: Six years ago yesterday I walked into a room filled with 100 of my friends and family members. It w...

February (1)

Letting the good get in the way of the bad....journal entry February 4 2011: The days turn into weeks, then months and suddenly you realize you have been living the life of a su...

January (2)

Every day has the potential of happiness...journal entry January 19, 2011: Last Sunday I stood in church thinking to myself that a fellow church friend was missing from her "s...
Play nice 2011 we have 360 days to get to know each other....Journal entry January 5, 2011: Ready or not it is 2011. This year has made its way gently into my life, which is probably good sin...

2010 (37)

December (1)

grrr, must S l o w down.....journal entry December 6 2010: Wow, can it possibly be December 6th already? When time moves this quickly it really makes you thin...

November (2)

Welcome to one of my communities.....journal entry November 9 2010: At church we are covering material that I hadn't really been able to wrap my mind around until I beg...
Emotions bouncing like a drop of water in a pan full of hot oil....journal entry Nov. 6 2010: If you want 4 months to just fly by schedule post cancer treatment scans and blood work. I swear th...

October (2)

My heart cries out a prayer....Journal entry Oct. 20 2010: I received a distress call from a friend and fellow cancer survivor a couple of days ago and have go...
Life rolled out the red carpet.....journal entry October 12, 2010: The celebration of my 6th year survival anniversary came and went without much fanfare, but not to w...

September (2)

September 28, 2010 is my 6th anniversary of survival! :D: This morning unlike most mornings I came awake slowly. The promise of the day a fog to my mind and ...
Yes Lord, beauty and miracles can come from dirt and crap....journal entry September 15 2010: I opened my eyes on September 6 2010 with a smile; it marked the day I had been married to my wonder...

August (2)

Perpetual state of colon prep is my life....journal entry August 31 2010: When you sit in my shoes, that is alive and without visible signs of cancer you would think I would ...
Can a cure be reality?....journal entry August 13, 2010: Well here I am again putting feelings and emotions into words that are so intense it is difficult pu...

July (3)

"On the road again" and I am going North and South...journal entry July 26 2010: Had to laugh this morning when I woke up and had a funny song going through my head..."on the road a...
My life is measured in 4 month increments...July 16 2010: Tuesday morning I dragged myself from bed long before sunrise to shower, grab my suitcase and follow...
11 days of worry or 264 hours of smiles?...journal entry July 2 2010: Wow, in 11 days I will again make my trek to LA, how does the time go by so quickly? It is so famili...

June (2)

One second, one horrific sight and our lives can forever change...journal entry June 9 2010: Yesterday my daughter and I were on our way home from a doctor appointment when I realized I had not...
Remission, or I just woke up on the right side of the grass?...journal entry June 7 2010: Time marches on and I am reminded daily of how precious it is. Yesterday I was approached by someon...

May (3)

Tears....journal entry May 29 2010: As the month of June draws near I find myself continually on the verge of tears. Trying to trace do...
The path that bumped into the road called cancer...journal entry May 21, 2010: The days have flown by so quickly since my last visit to the pages of my journey. I am thrilled to ...
Sometimes I swear there are two of me...journal entry May 3 2010: Sometimes I swear there are two of me. There is Larissa the 'original' who is happy to go through li...

April (4)

Letting go of control leads to the road of peace...journal entry April 19 2010: This weekend I had the privilege to attend a women’s retreat offered by my church. Not one to fee...
Cancer or Rollercoaster?....journal entry April 11 2010: You know I have battled this disease for more than 5 years and often wonder if the people who come i...
Emotional baggage in my Easter basket....journal entry April 5 2010: It is strange to journal here when I am “without” visible disease, but when I started to tra...
Having time to ponder...journal entry April 1 2010: Today I had time to ponder. Such a fun word, ponder: to think deeply, meditate, deliberate. A quiet...

March (5)

Switching places...journal entry March 26..2010: I love Spring, actually I love the change from one season to the next. That first green leaf buddin...
: Just a quick note...I got clean scans!!! Do not have to go back until July, but need to schedule end...
Send anxiety packing and "spring" ahead...journal entry March 14 2010: Well, it's here! What's here? My date with March 17th now changed to March 16th has made it's way ...
Today I have a sky watching date with a 5 year old!....journal entry March 9 2010: In my life I have three beautiful children that have either reached adulthood or are on the brink of...
: In my life I have three beautiful children that have either reached adulthood or are on the brink of...

February (5)

Charlotte's web weaves strength in me....journal entry Feb. 28, 2010: I have just finished directing another play, Charlotte's Web. What a joy it has been to be surround...
My top is made out of rubber my bottom is made out of springs...journal entry February 23 2010: It happens to all of us at some point or another, what you ask? That tormenting wonder of..."is it ...
A cold is a bummer, but life is priceless...journal entry February 17, 2010: Yesterday I woke up in the morning with a very stiff neck and sore throat and thought "darn"! I am ...
It's all in how I look at it! ....journal entry February 9, 2010: Yesterday I spent the entire day battling back those anxious, heart quickening, pulse racing feeling...
A note to a friend....journal entry Feb. 2009: Oh sweet friend, You are in a place that we all avoid…facing what we believe will be the “end...

January (6)

From Crash to Cruise...journal entry January 26, 2010: It occurred to me today that I have reached "cruise" mode in my journey of survival. I don't seem t...
Just a few thoughts....journal entry January 19, 2010: Thoughts that have crossed my mind in recent days... Given the vastness of our world need we stay...
Has life become a checklist?...journal entry January 2010: In the past few days I have found myself trying to fit way to much life into the hours of the day. ...
Armed and ready to face this year...journal entry January 2010: Well 2010, the year that came in so quiet and unexpectedly made itself known. What an introduction,...
My caregiver has gone into patient mode...what to do?: Just a quick note and request for prayer. My husband, rock of my life just landed in the hospital w...
Hello 2010, my name is Larissa and it's nice to meet you....journal entry 1/1/2010: It is the year 2010, a year I never dreamed of after that fateful day of September 28, 2004. It nev...

2009 (53)

December (2)

Laughter, memories, and a "frozen" chicken....journal December 2009: I can't believe I am here. It is the Christmas season of 2009 and I am living life! Wow, all I can...
Impending doom meets Skittles and Rainbows....Journal entry December 2009: Yesterday I looked down at my phone and saw that I had missed a call from my oncology surgeon. I st...

November (10)

Thankfulness....November 24, 2009: This time of Thanksgiving may bring all types of different emotions depending on where you are in yo...
Surviving plus good news!!! November, 2009: I sat here at the computer and began feeling as if I had been sucked through some type of time warp....
All too familiar...journal entry July, 2009: Another System failure is a term I use loosely to help deal with the fact I am about to lose another...
Yet another "system" failure...Journal entry July 2009: May made way for June and while I had seen some improvement in my new "piping" I had suddenly become...
Mountain top experiences...journal entry May, 2009: As my one year of learning how to deal with the new "pipe" system plugs along I continue to figure o...
Shingles, and prayers for my Birthday....journal entry April 3, 2009: I sit here on April 3, 2009 my 44th birthday covered in Shingles and reflecting where I have been ov...
Being an optimist doesn't mean we get to skip the bad stuff in life...February 2009: Being an optimist doesn't mean we get to skip the bad stuff in life. It just means we've been given...
"Please help me, there are BATS in my room"...journal Oct. 2008: Having made it through my fourth surgery I basically knew what I would encounter during recovery. A...
...and the thoughts of "silver linings" danced in my head...journal Oct. 2008: The month of September 2008 both speeds and drags by as I await my October surgery date. My mind is...
Learning to "wrap my mind" around it....Aug. 2008: It is the end August 2008 and I have had my scans, now it's off to prep and take on my every 3 month...

October (16)

I am fearfully and wonderfully made...Oct. 29, 2009: I think life with cancer feels a little like being in a swing with someone pushing you really high a...
"They want me to do what with my poop"? TMI..journal OCT. 24, 2009: I have to jump to the present for a moment because I just find the world of cancer we live amongst s...
"Do I truly need a back-up plan"?...journal Feb. 2008: Do you ever find yourself so caught up in the uncertainty of your days left on earth that you catch ...
Held up by the arms of 50 little angels...Journal entry Dec. 2007: The two months following my last treatment were a jumble of activity. It is a strange world to walk...
Doing the "Happy" dance....journal entry Sept.2 2007: Do you ever wake up, and before your mind even takes on conciousness your body is doing the "Happy" ...
From my chemo ridden brain comes Life's ebb and flow....journal summer 2007: As the summer of 2007 makes it's way to the end I glory in the little celebrations of life. My husb...
Who am I?...2007: I have to force myself to remember what life was before cancer. When I didn't think on a nearly dai...
Oh woe is me....Journal entry May 27, 2007: It is surreal to be on the other side of the feelings written in these journal pages, to re-live the...
Here we go for chemo #2 and I mean #2 lol....journal entry April,2007: I was on the road for LA to receive my second dose of my new chemo regimen. This one was a doosey! ...
My hope...journal entry May 2007: Dear friends, I hope and pray that there was a time in our journy together that I walked so clos...
My hysteria themed pity party....March 15, 2007: It is March 15, just two weeks after my second colon surgery and I am already back behind the chair....
I woke up screaming...February 27, 2007: Today is the day, another portion of my colon will be taken along with the demon we call cancer. Th...
My precious treasures....Feb. 18, 2007: I am happy to say that today I feel the strength to get over this next hurdle. It never ceases to a...
Come on, who would beg for a colonoscopy?....February 13, 2007: As today's first light comes throught the window I end one of my most miserable nights of colon prep...
Watching my children suffer...Journal entry 2006: Today as opened my journal I came upon the entry of my two year mark. I am now at five years and ye...
Miracles and Surgeries part 2....Journal entry 2006: Surgery from my side takes clearing the mind, prepping the body and willing myself to know God will ...

September (25)

Miracles and Surgeries part one....June 6, 2006: Wow, it has been awhile since I have come to my journal. Taking back my life made me shy away from ...
A new beginning...Journal entry 2005: April 18, 2005 I am back in LA waiting for my PET/CT and MRI scans. I think I have begun to glow in...
Out with cancer, in with life! Today I celebrate 5 years since diagnosis, I am a survivor!: On a sunny April 8th I gave birth to my youngest daughter, it is on this same day 13 years later tha...
Camping in "Pityland" for my 40th birthday....Journal entry 2005: It's funny how life just marches on with no regard to what you are going through. Sometimes don't y...
To Rise Again....Journal 2005: It is the end of March and I am quickly approaching my 40th birthday. To be honest, I did not think...
An amazing gift from strangers...journal 2005: My mother-in-law has been extremely helpful to us during my chemo. making her own 4 hour trip once o...
My dog was trying to tell me something....journal 2005: Animals can be strange creatures so it sometimes takes awhile to realize their erratic behavior can ...
...embracing my nasty, little shadow...February 2005: Do you ever feel like someone is following you and turn around to find nothing there? That is a lit...
...are you breathing? Journal entry January 2005: The day of my first follow up scans has arrived,and I find myself shaking with trepidation. Still n...
Smiles in the "pit".... journal entery January 2004: I am now scheduled for my first scans since chemotherapy began. I feel some relief in the fact that ...
A weekend in the life of Chemotherapy...January 2004: Today marks my sixth session of Chemotherapy, I am half way there! Our first stop is about 15 minute...
May I be the Pastrami sandwich to someone in need..journal entry 12/30/2004: It's New Years Eve weekend and I am in LA for treatment. It is our first New Years away from our th...
The Peach Tree..... journal entry Dec. 23, 2004: A thought came over me that December day that brought me a new sense of peace. I drove past a pea...
The twinkling of Christmas lights...entry Dec.22, 2004: December 18th I am in LA having a treatment and realize I have to get a grip on my emotions. Our thr...
"Numb and Dumb" entry Dec. 2004: Those that have been through chemo will talk about a fatigue like nothing we have ever experienced i...
Things I've learned to love....: This is not from my journal pages but just came to my mind so I had to share. I love when I go al...
Is there a ray of sunshine on this cloudy day? entry Dec.2004: It's early December and I am headed to LA for my 3rd weekend of chemo. I arrive covered in a horrify...
Quarters from children...Journal entry November 2004: I have been called the the rock, the prayer warrior, peacemaker, go-to-for-the-answer-to-all-questio...
"This is the first day of chemo in your whole life"!: "This is the first day of chemo in your whole life", were the words spilling gleefully from my Oncol...
... then there are the "lowest of days"!: I have to remind myself as I begin to share this journey that these events began 5 years ago, for as...
When you just don't have an answer...: Now that I have the understanding of what has been feeding off my body, I have the monumental decisi...
....but there are no exits, so we will find it!: After surgery and while you wait to be released from the hospital, you dread yet desire that all imp...
A funny day: I have learned more about myself on this journey than I probably should tell, but my desperate ...
An Angel on my journey...: I remember waking up to find a tube from my nose to my stomach and a bunch of people surrounding...
My Journey: September 28, 2004 will be seared in my mind for the rest of my life. Like the day of my birth...
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August 29, 2009

California

Cancer Info

Colon and Rectal Cancer

September 28, 2004

Stage 3C

4.1 - 5.0 cm

Yes

That affects more than just me.

That I have more strength than I ever imagined.

left with mild neuropothy, balance and memory issues

Cedar Sinai in Beverly Hills California

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Write things down, play memory games and games that make you think quickly

Since the first and 1 recurrence I have lived no evidence of disease

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