New Shoes....journal August 21 2019

I have touched on it before, felt the “come to terms” moment, talked it out, spat upon it and still it is just in my face non stop.  Then again how can it not be in my face when there are four of us in this family juggling doctors and lining up appointments like it is a job.

We have Lynch, we have knowledge that gives us power and that same knowledge can in turn kick the wind out of us as we traverse the daily lives we still long to live.  That mismatch, hiccup of a gene that we would love to reach in and fine tune is sometimes barely noticeable and other times completely blocks our ability to think.  It reminds me of a new pair of shoes that in the store seem oh so perfect and then one day out become a blistering nemesis.

Life is like that for all of us if we really think about it.  Growing up in tough circumstances, health issues, deaths of loved ones, losing friends, jobs, or security all leave us with the feeling that at any time life can blister us and we panic.

That panic can quickly become a monster if we don’t equip our minds with a safe place, a means of escape so to speak.  Oh panic may come back, in fact it probably will but at least we have set up in our minds a place that gets us away from it quickly.

Recently I realized I have honed this skill in my mind so well that I may not sound compassionate when speaking to people with new cancers or other pain in their lives and I seek balance.  In my family these bumps in the road come so frequently we have to make them as mundane as shopping for a new pair of shoes.  

No one likes shoe shopping as much as it seems we would.  It is tough to find just the right color, fit or size.  Sometimes they rub a bit and we have to break them in.  They cost so much more than we anticipated and often have a blemish in the stitching that really gets us worked up given the cost and time given up for them.

Once we settle down, give the situation some time we can come to terms with it, live with it and even find laughter in spite of it.  It may not be what we had dreamed of, planned for or want in any way shape or form but it is ours so we best not worry about potential blisters and just get set to break in life’s bumps like a new pair of shoes that make us run faster and jump higher than ever before.

Living each day like the best day of our lives!

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I love this. Rolling with the punches is necessary if we want to get the most out of life!
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August 29, 2009

California

Cancer Info

Colon and Rectal Cancer

September 28, 2004

Stage 3C

4.1 - 5.0 cm

Yes

That affects more than just me.

That I have more strength than I ever imagined.

left with mild neuropothy, balance and memory issues

Cedar Sinai in Beverly Hills California

Exercise!!!!

Write things down, play memory games and games that make you think quickly

Since the first and 1 recurrence I have lived no evidence of disease

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