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Fifteen....journal September 28 2019

“According to John Hopkins Medicine, the average human respiratory rate is 12 to 16 breaths per minute. This converts to an average of 840 breaths per hour, 14,1120 breaths per week, and 7,363,289 breaths per year.”  If I have done the math correctly that means I have today been gifted a rough estimate of 110,449,335 extra breaths and counting in life since cancer.

Hello survivor year 15, aren’t you an interesting character.  Looking at you on the calendar brings all kinds of feelings I would not have expected.

I had joyous plans shaped in my mind for you, a fun trip to celebrate your arrival, a party, a movie something very memorable to mark your existence, but you do not look at all like I dreamed.  You look like an ordinary day and somehow that comes as a relief.

To welcome you in without any expectation or fanfare is just as life should be and how thankful I am to have you here.  

Fifteen, thanks for showing up!  I am looking forward to spending time with you and seeing what you have brought along to share with me in this year to come.  I can’t help but cringe a bit knowing that like those years before you there will be some rough patches to go along with the good, but what would a year be without all life has to offer?

Now that you are here let’s take one of those newly gifted, deep breaths and start this year.

Live and breathe through each day like it’s the best day of your life!

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Larissa,congratulations on 15 years! Thank you for sharing your thoughts on this momentous occasion and I am glad it is just like any other day, that means a lot that this is becoming a normal day. Here's to many more breaths and normal days!
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Wow, 15 years! Congratulations, my dear friend! How awesome! Like you, my 11 year anniversary came and went without any fanfare or much thought. I view that as progress--getting on with normal life and looking to the future, not looking back! May there be millions more breaths in your years ahead! Love ya!
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Dance....journal 9/23/2019

Life's a dance, you learn as you go.

Sometimes you lead, sometimes you follow.

Don't worry 'bout what you don't know,

life's a dance, you learn as you go. These are words penned by John Michael Montgomery for a country song and they are exactly what we need to hear from time to time!


Speaking of time, time is screaming up on my 15 year survivor anniversary and I don’t know if these years have looked more like a dance or a bad bob and weave attempt in a boxing match.

Survival is tough, it’s a gift and oh so cherished but just like the song says sometimes I lead and sometimes I follow.  If I am brutally honest, sometimes I’m good and sometimes I wallow in the muck and worry rather than dance.


Choreographed dance take time to create, most often telling a moving story without a word, improvised dance just takes off and allows the movement that comes to create a story that is raw and open to much interpretation.  Life is most definitely improvisational dance.


When we are healthy of mind, body and spirit our hearts soar and our inner energy swirls around like the light dancing off a prism.  It is glorious as the joy of life literally spills out of us and our bodies feel lighter and our smiles grow bigger.


Oh how I wish this dance upon the world, one of joy, health, energy and love for the God created bodies we live in while we make our journey upon the earth.  


Wish as I may I know that life will come with it’s bumps; some days we will lead, some days we will “wallow” and the dance created by each of us as we swirl through life will be one open to interpretation as the story unfolds before us.


Go, live and dance like this is the best day of your life.



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Thanks for sharing ❤️
Beautiful, Larissa. Hugs!
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Vital Info


August 29, 2009


Cancer Info

Colon and Rectal Cancer

September 28, 2004

Stage 3C

4.1 - 5.0 cm


That affects more than just me.

That I have more strength than I ever imagined.

left with mild neuropothy, balance and memory issues

Cedar Sinai in Beverly Hills California


Write things down, play memory games and games that make you think quickly

Since the first and 1 recurrence I have lived no evidence of disease


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