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Set in Stone Journal July 15 2019

Set in stone...journal July 15!2019

 

I very much dislike the idea of my days being numbered; Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.  Psalm 139:16.  Yet if anyone were to hold my days in the palm of his hand I would prefer it be my creator!

These numbered days, “set in stone” so to speak hold no power over us because the gift of them comes with free will.  Yes these days are still governed by a world with suffering but also are they showered with immeasurable joy.

They were not etched onto something so solid that what comes between the beginning and the end here on earth is without some wiggle room.  They are to be lived so fully that in remembering us no one would know if we lived 9 or 90 years.

When burdened by illness, pain, sadness, loss, tragedy we can lose sight of the gift of our days.  Becoming so involved in this bleak time causes us to forget how a tiny match lit in a dark cavern can cause an absolute flood of welcoming light!  

Allowing that light to fall upon all that brings pain and sorrow can lead to a way out of the cave of despair.  We may still have the pains of the world but we can take our renewed strength to live life fully in spite of them.

Dragging the past along with us, fretting over the burdens of today and becoming frozen in fear over what tomorrow can bring are no way to use up our time.  Let go of what was, live today like it is the best day ever and just let tomorrow be what it will be.

Shatter that stone into a billion little pieces and scatter those along the path of a life well lived, loved and shared. 

This is not our eternity, this life is not “set in stone”, this life is a gift to be lived  and when we are done the memory of us should show days lived so fully they could not possibly be set in stone.

Living each day like the best day of our lives!

 

Danean, Annabelle sent you a hug.
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Thank you so much for sharing. I have had a hard time mentally going from stage 2 out 4 years to stage 4 with Mets to liver and “spots” on kidney and lungs.
❤️🙏🏻🥊 I am so sorry, not the things we want to hear or battle!!!!
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Red Balloon July 3,2019

Once in a story I heard Pooh Bear ask for a red balloon, when asked if he needed it he answered “no, but it would make me happy”.

Balloons can pop or float away, in a short time they shrink, wilting to nothing so that happiness will be long gone.  I feel the urge to warn Pooh to choose something that will last, that will continue to bring happiness in the years to come, something that won’t break his heart when it is gone, but I hear his voice and with certainty I know the balloon will make him happy!

Pooh is a simple bear, with simple needs in a complex world of “oh bothers” and yet he gets it!  Understanding that we don’t have to set our worries out ahead of us, we can stop and take joy in this very moment.  We can want what makes us happy right here and now.

It is ok to dream big, God have us dreams, it is ok to want lasting happiness, it is ok to long for security in our future.  It is not ok to be so consumed by these feelings that we lose sight of the simple pleasure of a red balloon.

We need not collect the balloons along the way for they were meant to just be moments of happiness.  Bright little bobbing spots of joy on our life’s path.  Take hold of that string, look up and smile and know that while you don’t need it, He have it to you to make you happy, so don’t be afraid to ask for and enjoy a red balloon. 🎈

Living each day like the best day of our lives!

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Love this!🎈
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You are so right. Life is made up of moments, lets have as many pleasant ones as possible. We have choices that allow us to choose our path.
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What a wonderful thing to share 💕
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That was great.. now I am going back in my coloring fort and drawing a red 🎈 balloon! Hugs and love and always prayers Sabina
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August 29, 2009

California

Cancer Info

Colon and Rectal Cancer

September 28, 2004

Stage 3C

4.1 - 5.0 cm

Yes

That affects more than just me.

That I have more strength than I ever imagined.

left with mild neuropothy, balance and memory issues

Cedar Sinai in Beverly Hills California

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